Sober

Its 4:07am in the sunday morning, i am awake, my sickness has not recover yet. Damn.. i hate this.

I thought i was ok yesterday, i still able to go out and play snooker with eric them. My colleague call and ask me am i ok that cleaning office on saturday, i straight away answer yes.

I went to office, started to clear the file and material sample from the high cabinet, after like 2 hours, i started feel dizzy, and almost faint, so i thought i was too hungry, then went down to papparich to have some light food, and went back office to continue the cleaning work, and i realised i still feeling dizzy, my body suddenly very hot, i think i got fever at that time. Then my colleague gave me panadol, after i took the panadol, i slept inside the conference room, and don't know for how many hours.

After that, my lady boss ask me to get home and rest, next week gonna be a tough week again. I cant have a good sleep, nightmare keep coming to me.. work keep whispering in my mind, guess that i'm too stress with work?

Friday

I took MC today, not going to office, actually i plan to go office when the night before i started feel better,but most of the time, things always different from what you predict. The whole night long, i suffer from my sorethroat, and never get a good sleep, so at the end i sms my colleague telling them i having MC today.

Cant fall asleep after 7am, then woke up, went to see doctor at 9am, and i told him don't know why my eye bengkak, then he ask me did i face too much computer, then i told him the period i have to face computer, he gave me a very shocked expression, like i'll die in very early age, but what to do, designer's life.

but i'm wondering, is designer's life really like that, have to work till midnight, maybe 7 days a week. or issit the malaysia's environment make the designer's life like that? how good if designer can finish work on time, the workload are lesser. Hmm...
i know thats only happen in dream, haha..

wonder how long can i be a commercial interior designer, the biggest problem i have is, i am too careless , maybe i suit another job more? who knows..

十年一刻

在我听见这首歌之前，我对苏打绿这个乐团，没什么好感，原因是看他主唱不顺眼。

然后不知何时，在One FM 听见这首个，‘十年一刻’， 让我有很大的感触，至于它怎样影响了我呢， 就你们自己来听听吧～




那姑娘半定着妆 身手漂亮 霓花随裳流浪
那两人说带着老歌舞齐放 百花手上飞扬
碾碎的河里散白糖 那浆水走遍大街小巷
不管是生旦净末丑 跑龙套也能让你桀骜
宁愿舍一顿饭也听你唱
可能茫了又茫 可能伤了又伤 可能无数眼泪在夜晚怅了又怅
可是换来成长 可是换来希望 如今我站在台上 和你音乐随享
那只竹开在东方 意波芬芳 ??地上流浪
那文化或在人唱英雄好汉 王子曲上征仗
不管是冰雪与风霜 那个断肠人在水一方 想我这一纸混也陪你闯
可能茫了又茫 可能伤了又伤 可能无数眼泪在夜晚怅了又怅
可是换来成长 可是换来希望 如今我站在台上 人们对你讲
十年的功 换来灿烂那一分钟的梦
生命舞台发光的人却不是只会说
可能茫了又茫 可能伤了又伤
可能无数眼泪在夜晚怅了又怅
可是换来成长 可是换来希望 如今我站在台上
可能饱经坚强 可能历经沧桑 可能我的疯狂暂时不得到原谅
可是我知道啊 可是我明白啊
是我的执着换来 在你面前歌唱
唱着我的幻想 唱着我的荒唐 唱着与你分享
拉动我们的窗

say goodbye